Haha... I always knew we had a spy on the channel, but I didn't know everything was being logged necessarily. In hind sight, being intoxicated for a good portion of my active play time was probably a bad idea. :P
I'd actually love a copy of these logs, at least for nostalgia sake. For better or worse, there were some fun times had back then.
I miss all the excitement. I'm not even sure if Maldric is signed on and raising right now, and I don't care much. It was different back when everyone was more actively involved.
I'm not sure if this is, or ever will be apparent to (or accepted by) everyone, but despite a few rants and raves here and there, our group has never taken any of this stuff very seriously. We have always been a group of people who are together with the sole purpose of having fun and helping each other out. There was no agenda, mission statement, goal, etc. Just play, have fun, support each other. Obviously we "cared" enough to get pissed off occasionally, but that is more of an individual "fuck I died, mother fuckign cock shit ass fsdfjsdlfk" then "oh noes! our plans for world domination are being threatened!!!"
A lot of the inner workings of the group are missed, as much of our real communication was done through AIM. There was a brief period of time when we were organized and I remember saying to Cthulu, "wow... we actually have a pretty cool operation going on right now!" Everyone was active, we were doing the table operation with the boxes, helping each other out, etc. There still wasn't any true goal, we were just people who liked playing together and helping each other out. Of course, over time people started being AFK again, doing their own thing, IRL shit going on, etc. There was never any cohesiveness, and there was never really meant to be. Mordechai would stress almost on a daily basis, "remember, RL is more important. Always take care of that first."
Mordechai is almost child-like in his wanting for everyone to have fun, and likewise is insanely trusting and trustworthy. (That isn't an insult.) However, he has never been reliable enough to keep the group together or focused... and I don't think he really had any plans other than to have fun and cause some chaos on the server. I'm not sure what the point saying any of this is other than feeling an urge to defend him, I guess. He's a good guy, I consider him my friend, and will continue to play with him. It's too bad you guys don't have all the AIM logs, because I've torn into him quite a few times... deserving or not. There is only one time I've seen him get upset/angry/defeated, and it was after the madam/table fiasco. He said something along the lines of retiring his character. When I asked him why, he didn't give a shit that we lost the table, the loot, or pride... he was just upset that we were all fighting with each other. (We were arguing and pointing fingers, etc). It all only lasted a few minutes, then we all settled down and said "who gives a fuck, let's keep playing."
Someone and Cervina were always sort of the backbone of Marlu. Any structure we had came from them. Mordechai would pop in occasionally and say, "anyone want to [go hunting, kill stuff, attack someone, etc]?" Some would come, some wouldn't. Other than a few events here and there, that was about the extent of our "operations."
In my opinion, "Marlu" as a clan or group was more a creation of those who hated us than what we actually were. We were never much of a group, clan, or anything resembling organization. The organization against us far outweighed any organization we ever had or (the important part) wanted or attempted to have.
Blah... I don't know how this post got so long. I'm just spewing out random thoughts, I guess.
The only real negatives I've taken from any of this are 1) the fact the game is sort of boring now, and that makes me sad, because I want shattered to prevail as a community, and 2) i feel a little betrayed on a personal level by people whom I considered to be friends, and not just shattered-personalities or alter-egos.
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