Tijay, this may be a really self-centred opinion, but it has kept me happy and sane for some good years. Put yourself first. I know it sounds shitty, but you lead your life, not someone else, and you only get the one shot at it, so do it how you feel, how you want to do it. If people get hurt...well its usually their problem. If people will accept you, and they will, all the more better. Don't give a fuck, be true to yourself and your way of life, and you'll be alot happier.
Xcalibur - The fool that enter a fool's game is fooler.
PB - 9000 is 95% of 18000