GSTamral
07-01-2004, 07:48 PM
I guess its because either its never happened before to me, or I've never realized it.
I can't even put it into words how much it absolutely sucks to come to a realization that you are doing nothing more than progressively hurting someone you care about. A true double enterde of the nature of self determination, to lift the fog of selfishness and realize you are doing nothing more than burning in effigy someone dear to you.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this in public, I guess if only to make people aware that maybe someone else might be doing the same thing, and if just one friendship is salvaged, then my own shame perhaps has a sense of redemption somewhere underneath this useless existence I lead.
And with that I will withdraw myself for a time, if only to perhaps hope that maybe this will all somehow make me wiser and better, and more careful of stepping on the feelings of others for personal gain.
I can't even put it into words how much it absolutely sucks to come to a realization that you are doing nothing more than progressively hurting someone you care about. A true double enterde of the nature of self determination, to lift the fog of selfishness and realize you are doing nothing more than burning in effigy someone dear to you.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this in public, I guess if only to make people aware that maybe someone else might be doing the same thing, and if just one friendship is salvaged, then my own shame perhaps has a sense of redemption somewhere underneath this useless existence I lead.
And with that I will withdraw myself for a time, if only to perhaps hope that maybe this will all somehow make me wiser and better, and more careful of stepping on the feelings of others for personal gain.