Another part of my life...

[GOD]

I dont know why exactly i'm posting this but heres aother bit of info that might give people a better insight of my life...

[quote]
(a friend of mine): well what are ur thoughts right now
HiGh LoRd 42O: I dont really have any...I never really have any thoughts unless i'm concentrateing on thinking about something, thats why i think you'd always get mad when you'd ask me how i felt about things and i didnt know how to answer...my mind is so active that it just wanders to everything and anything except the current topic if i dont keep a good focus...
(a friend of mine): i see.
HiGh LoRd 42O: I dont know why i'm like that, its just real hard to get thru life like that tho, i could never pay attention in school, i cant pay attention to this day, my unles always yellin at me cause if he's talkin to me he wants me to sit still but i naturally start fidgiting and fucking with stuff, and its cause my brand is so active and wanders to every little tihng in my head, but doesnt stay focussed on the big picture...
(a friend of mine): well i wish i knew the anwser to that specific problem but i dont

-John

[DaMaGe]

Dude, I do the same thing.

It's like my thoughts are flying through my head in one long run-on sentence, and I have to grab one at a time and focus on it to get anything accomplished.


-Adam

[HarmNone]

Have you been tested for ADHD? The symptoms you describe sure seem to fit that picture. At least, you might want to look into it if you have not done so. :)

HarmNone

[GOD]

I asked my dad when i was younger, he told me it was all in my head and i didnt need to see a doctor....

-John

[GOD]

I notice i have bad memory loss too, i'm talking to my ex-girlfriend on AIM and i cant remember her name....

-John

[GOD]

Okay i rememberd her name...its Maria...

[Lord Deprav]

John, That is extremely fucked up. I said the same thing last night to one of my friends and she told me the same thing "I don't know what really to say." I told her that is why I smoke. I just can't help but fidget. Like when I am driving...I need a smoke. My finger nails are bit off to the point of bleeding. I think I may go nuts. I called my mom about 4 hours ago and told her to set up a doctors appointment. I am going to have to get tested for Adult ADD. My grades are really bad this semester and it seems like the only time when I can focus is when I am drinking.

Deprav

[DaMaGe]

I'm pretty sure mine's just due to too much cocaine and acid. My synapses are firing off way too fast. I think.

I'm alot smarter than I let people think I am. I could just use some help in the 'common sense' part of my brain. Things are going pretty good for me now, though. I don't drink anymore. I smoke pot, but all the other drugs I've done are just a part of my past now. I spend as much time with my daughter ( have you seen her pictures in the Baby Post thread, HarmNone? ) as possible, even though her mom and I are only civil, at best.

All in all, I've been making a lot of good moves here in only the past month.Anyways, I'm not really sure where all of that came from.

If you think something's seriously wrong, go to a doctor for real. Tell them the truth, about everything. It helps, even if it's just to get some things off your mind.


-Adam

[Edited on 12-18-2003 by DaMaGe]

[HarmNone]

GOD, hon, please get checked out for ADHD. There is treatment for it. You do not have to feel this way. Do it for yourself, and for those of us who care about you! :)

Deprav, I am really glad you are going to see a doctor. Whatever is wrong, I am sure it can be treated. The drinking will not help in the long run, but I am sure you are well aware of that. Good luck!

HarmNone cares about you guys, dammit!

[HarmNone]

DaMaGe, your daughter is absolutely beautiful, and the love you have for her was evident in your eyes.

I am glad to hear you have gotten off the drugs and are making inroads toward reaching the goals you set for yourself. Life is a trip, and there are wrong turns along the way. All of us take the wrong road at times. As long as we find our way back to the road that leads where we want to go, we are doing just fine! :)

HarmNone

[GOD]

Deprav,

Man, i do the same thing with my finger nails, i smoke too, especially when i get nervous cuz i fidgit 10x as much, man its hard to live life like tihis, it really is...and now that im in Jamaica i dont even know how to go see a doctor...bro, i hope you can get your self better, and i hope i can one day to, i know how it is living life like that, its fucked up man, i hope the best for you.

-John

[JustMe]

I do the same fidgeting thing. I always have something I'm chewing on or messing with. Doesn't matter if it's my keys, a keychain, a pen, or smoking. Sometimes I'll sit there and play with my cig, pushing all the tobacco out and not even smoke it. My jewelry is a big thing too, turning my necklaces or earrings and messing with them. It sounds like you have ADD or ADHD, depending. My good friend from high school has it and he's on medication. Go get it checked out, it can't hurt anything to just make sure...

[GOD]

Ya, when i get back to the states next summer i can go see a doctor, i dont have the money now...especially in a foreign country that my visa has expired in...

-John