I want to go home...

[GOD]

I just want to go home...i've had my share of jamaica, and i'm home sick now, but i cant leave for another 8 months.....sorry i just needed to get that out....i dont even have fun any more, i'm just feeling depressed 24/7 cause all i can think about is my family back home, my good frends back home, and people that i'm not related but i consider family back home...thats all that runs thru my head anymore, and its so damn depressing cuz i know i wont be able to see them all for another 8 months....blah

[Betheny]

How come you can't leave?

[Xcalibur]

$$$ surely

Home for me is where I am

[GOD]

Because i promised my grandma i'd come out here and stay with my uncle for a year, i guess my life had gotten to a point where my grandma told me that she thought that i would be dead or in jail within a year if i didnt leave, and i could see how much it hurt her so i just did what she wanted me to do, which was come out here to stay with my uncle for a bit....i mean tho, i'm 21, and i'm not even allowed to control my life because i feel guilty that my family thinks i'm gonna be dead in under a year...whatever tho, this is really getting to me...i know how to run and live my life....i wish i was one of them type of people that just didnt give a fuck.

[Betheny]

It's good you're doing something for your family.

Maybe you'll learn something... like how not to live a life that's dangerous.

And... bang some hot Jamaican chicks for me, yah?

[Sean]

this is why i never went to live with my dad no matter how much he pressed for me to come live with him for awhile on the island. i still stand by jamaica as a great place to visit. but the living conditions and style of life are just not something im ready for. i wish your the best man. and hope you find some joy in your life.