Love, the rant

[Shifted]

Ok, where do I start.

Oh, i believe in love. I'm in love for that matter. but i HATE love. it is the emotion that cuses the greatest pain, and makes us do crazy things and think crazy thoughts. Fuck that. I enjoy being on the edge of sanity, i don't need an outside force trying to push me over the edge. I can't stand it. Sometimes i smile and i'm happy, other times i want to bang my head against a wall. And still other times i just want to drink. But soon as i start i usually stop, cause even that doesn't make me feel any better.

It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Bullshit. sometimes that applies,. but most of the time it doesn't. I would SO much rather have not loved at all. And it's not a breakup or anything, before you ask. I can get over those, and have. Rather quickly in fact. No, i am still very much in love, and i HATE it. I hate the way it makes me feel right now. ARGHHHHH.

Serously. I get distracted much, much easier than i did before, i can't really concentrate on anything at all. Not even at work. I can't lose myself in my work. I tried. Talking about it with friends doesn't make me feel better, i'm sure that talking aobut it with her would, but i can't. not right now. I've never been this messed up in my life. I'd rather go through my bike wreck all over again than what i'm going through now.

Jeesh.

Sometimes i think it would be better not to even feel love at all. Someone needs to make a pill.

[peam]

Pretty embarrassing post.

[Shifted]

It would be, if i cared about embarrassing myself right now. or if any of you knew me.

[Soulpieced]

http://th156.photobucket.com/albums/t11/Real_Blonde/th_TheEmoSong.jpg

[War Angel]

Congrats! Love is great. (Plus, the alternative sucks.)

[Shifted]

Great pic, cept for the mood. hell, apathetic would make my life easier, too.

[Warriorbird]

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All you need is love.

[Latrinsorm]

Congrats! Love is great. (Plus, the alternative sucks.):yeahthat:

[Shifted]

http://images.wikia.com/uncyclopedia/images/thumb/4/45/PleaseCutCorrectly.png/180px-PleaseCutCorrectly.png

All you need is love.


been through that stage of my life. left it years ago. thanks for the advice, tho.

[Fallen]

Originally Posted by Celephais
Winning internet arguements will not make your penis bigger; I refer you to the multiplication property of zero. >>

Bahaha. That is hilarious.

[TheEschaton]

Serious time:

"When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."

I happen to think there's a more appropos quote about pain and suffering in this work which bears quoting in this context as well:

"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?"

[Fallen]

I make love like I shuck corn.

[thefarmer]

With a brisk pull and yank?

[Shifted]

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Precisely the issue i'm dealing with

[Stanley Burrell]

If you're a dude, where did your reproductive organs go?

If you're a chick, I would literally be obliged to pouring you muscatel in a plastic wine glass and having quasi-consensual sex with you. Your post is the epitome of slumpbuster. Jeesh.

[sst]

Oh for fucks sake Quit being a Emo Crybaby and act like a fucking man.

[Asha]

Yeah join the army.

[Sylvan Dreams]

Fatigues are HOT.

If you 'hate' how 'love' makes you feel so much, then break up with her. Voila, problem solved.

But then you'll probably just make an emo post about how breaking up sucks.

[Shifted]

yeah, never had issuse with breakups and emo-like behavior before. just complications in this relationship. breaking up is easy to deal with. done it enough.

as for sex, i have no problem. getting plenty of that.

grant me an emo-day, though. sometimes ya need one of those.

[Warriorbird]

Emoday is Monday! Next!

Hey, well, I had my sheer of emo around the end of my marriage. The positive things of life creep through though...and the world just tends to keep getting better and better.

[Shifted]

oh, i do get a little better day by day. i'll be back to almost normal in about a month. maybe sooner.

[TheSmooth1]

http://www.slabiak.dk/forum_pictures/die-50_caliber_asprin.jpg

http://www.slabiak.dk/forum_pictures/die-html.jpg

[Shifted]

I'm not that bad.

I guess i don't like not being in control of my emotions. that's what bothers me the most.years of being comnpletely stable and predictable, then a wrench is thrown in.

[Skeeter]

http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb17/SirHempsworth/emoPussy.jpg

[Shifted]

sad thing is, i used to be that fat.