Lost

[Wyndshadow]

Ok I wrote this on my myspace bulleton a while ago, just having a 'deep' mood. I mainly posted it here because I noticed the sucide thread and wanted to coment on it, and I had written something about sucide in it.

Ever feel you are lost or have lost your way somewhere? I don't mean direction to a place, but your way in life. Some people know where they are going in life, whether good or bad. Yet some of us don't really know for sure at all. There are so many directions or paths to pick from. Each direction has its effects. Some plow head on saying 'what will happen, will happen'. Others carefully decide till they think they have the 'right one'. Yet some, like me, just stand there. Oh, I don't mean that we do nothing at all. We work and take care of our families. We follow the road, but always wonder, is this the right way? Did I make a wrong turn? Should I turn off somewhere? There are some paths we know we will never choose, but there are still many to pick from. We have been travling down this one path in our lives for many years now, yet we feel something is not 'right'. Then we think 'well if I keep going a little longer maybe it will be better'. It's still the same though, but we don't want to get off or turn for we are afraid of choosing an even worse fate. So you are just 'standing' there. Stale mate. Sometimes it turns better. Sometimes it gets worse. Yet other times its still stays the same and you start to wonder, is something wrong with me? Shouldn't I be happy? If you are like me, you say well others have it worse, I should be thankful. And I am thankful for a lot of things in my life, such as my son. The feeling is still there though. It never seems to leave. You just are 'lost'. Left to stand behind in the indecision of your own making. You are afraid to turn or to reach out because you might get someone else 'lost'. Sad sometimes the things we do to ourselves. While we are 'standing' we are not really 'living'. I think that is why sometimes we hear about people taking their own life, but having no real 'reason' to want to leave this world. They had good jobs and a decent life. I think they were one of the people 'standing' there and just decided to give up and make no choice at all. I do not believe in that path. I believe there is always a choice. I continue to believe there is a choice for me, I just wonder which is the best. I know no one can tell me or give me 'directions'. I am the only person who can choose. If it was just me to worry about, I think I would be one of those people who plow head on. But I have my son to think about as well, so I am left 'standing' and wondering 'am I doing right for him?' I guess I will never know for sure untill I meet my maker. I hope for myself, my son, and for others out there, that we all make the 'right' decisions. Whether we know if it is the right path or not. Untill then, I continue to pray I am doing right for my son. And I continue to be thankful for all I do have. I hope others do the same. We only have one life to live. Try to make the best of it. Even if you are one of the ones 'standing' there between the choices of life.

[TheEschaton]

"My Lord God
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following
your will does not mean
that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that my desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope that I have that desire
in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything
apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this
you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always
though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear,
for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me
to face my perils alone."

-TheE-
*I didn't write that prayer. Thomas Merton did.

[Wyndshadow]

Well, even if you didn't write it, Thank you. I like it. I have wrote other things in the past myself. Just to do something. I don't think I could ever publish anything. Thanks again. I really did like it

[Wezas]

Was really hoping this was an ABC's "Lost" thread.

I had a Hurley joke just waiting.

[CrystalTears]

Maybe you're lost because you can't decipher that wall of text. :D

[Skeeter]

I also was hoping for a tv show lost thread. also I had to skip your post due to your lack of any paragraph structure. I'm sure it was deep and meaningfull.

[Doyle Hargraves]

Ok I wrote this on my myspace bulleton a while ago, just having a 'deep' mood. I mainly posted it here because I noticed the sucide thread and wanted to coment on it, and I had written something about sucide in it.

Ever feel you are lost or have lost your way somewhere? I don't mean direction to a place, but your way in life. Some people know where they are going in life, whether good or bad. Yet some of us don't really know for sure at all. There are so many directions or paths to pick from. Each direction has its effects. Some plow head on saying 'what will happen, will happen'. Others carefully decide till they think they have the 'right one'. Yet some, like me, just stand there. Oh, I don't mean that we do nothing at all. We work and take care of our families. We follow the road, but always wonder, is this the right way? Did I make a wrong turn? Should I turn off somewhere? There are some paths we know we will never choose, but there are still many to pick from. We have been travling down this one path in our lives for many years now, yet we feel something is not 'right'. Then we think 'well if I keep going a little longer maybe it will be better'. It's still the same though, but we don't want to get off or turn for we are afraid of choosing an even worse fate. So you are just 'standing' there. Stale mate. Sometimes it turns better. Sometimes it gets worse. Yet other times its still stays the same and you start to wonder, is something wrong with me? Shouldn't I be happy? If you are like me, you say well others have it worse, I should be thankful. And I am thankful for a lot of things in my life, such as my son. The feeling is still there though. It never seems to leave. You just are 'lost'. Left to stand behind in the indecision of your own making. You are afraid to turn or to reach out because you might get someone else 'lost'. Sad sometimes the things we do to ourselves. While we are 'standing' we are not really 'living'. I think that is why sometimes we hear about people taking their own life, but having no real 'reason' to want to leave this world. They had good jobs and a decent life. I think they were one of the people 'standing' there and just decided to give up and make no choice at all. I do not believe in that path. I believe there is always a choice. I continue to believe there is a choice for me, I just wonder which is the best. I know no one can tell me or give me 'directions'. I am the only person who can choose. If it was just me to worry about, I think I would be one of those people who plow head on. But I have my son to think about as well, so I am left 'standing' and wondering 'am I doing right for him?' I guess I will never know for sure untill I meet my maker. I hope for myself, my son, and for others out there, that we all make the 'right' decisions. Whether we know if it is the right path or not. Untill then, I continue to pray I am doing right for my son. And I continue to be thankful for all I do have. I hope others do the same. We only have one life to live. Try to make the best of it. Even if you are one of the ones 'standing' there between the choices of life.

Wall of text just arrived.

Wall of text hurls a bunch of words at you!
AS: +408 vs DS: +271 with AvD: +51 + d100 roll: +87 = +275
... and hit for 225 points of damage!
Immense grammatical bolt finds right eye the perfect conductor to ground out in. A shocking death indeed. Mmhmm.
The translucent sphere fades from around you.
You feel less confident than before.
The tingling sensation and sense of security leaves you.
You no longer bristle with energy.
You come back into focus.
The bright luminescence fades from around you.
You become solid again.
You feel your extra magical awareness leave you.
You feel the extra courage wane.
You notice the faint image of yourself disappear.
The silvery luminescence fades from around you.
You feel your extra strength departing.
The layer of protection fades away.
The buzz of thoughts in your mind subsides.
The brilliant luminescence fades from around you.

* Doyle Hargraves just bit the dust!

It seems you have died, my friend. Although you cannot do anything, you are keenly aware of what is going on around you...

You mentally give a sigh of relief as you remember that the Goddess Lorminstra owes you a favor.

...departing in 20 mins...

The wall of text howls with vicious delight!

[Stanley Burrell]

Wall of text just arrived.
Wall of text hurls a bunch of words at you!
AS: +408 vs DS: +271 with AvD: +51 + d100 roll: +87 = +275
... and hit for 225 points of damage!
Immense grammatical bolt finds right eye the perfect conductor to ground out in. A shocking death indeed. Mmhmm.
The translucent sphere fades from around you.
You feel less confident than before.
The tingling sensation and sense of security leaves you.
You no longer bristle with energy.
You come back into focus.
The bright luminescence fades from around you.
You become solid again.
You feel your extra magical awareness leave you.
You feel the extra courage wane.
You notice the faint image of yourself disappear.
The silvery luminescence fades from around you.
You feel your extra strength departing.
The layer of protection fades away.
The buzz of thoughts in your mind subsides.
The brilliant luminescence fades from around you.

* Doyle Hargraves just bit the dust!

It seems you have died, my friend. Although you cannot do anything, you are keenly aware of what is going on around you...

You mentally give a sigh of relief as you remember that the Goddess Lorminstra owes you a favor.

...departing in 20 mins...

The wall of text howls with vicious delight!

Fuckin' A... I :worship: DH.

[Ilvane]

Just because the topic was good, and the thoughts interesting..Edited for clarity.

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Ever feel you are lost or have lost your way somewhere? I don't mean direction to a place, but your way in life.

Some people know where they are going in life, whether good or bad. Yet some of us don't really know for sure at all. There are so many directions or paths to pick from. Each direction has its effects. Some plow head on saying 'what will happen, will happen'. Others carefully decide till they think they have the 'right one'. Yet some, like me, just stand there.

Oh, I don't mean that we do nothing at all. We work and take care of our families. We follow the road, but always wonder, is this the right way? Did I make a wrong turn? Should I turn off somewhere?

There are some paths we know we will never choose, but there are still many to pick from. We have been travling down this one path in our lives for many years now, yet we feel something is not 'right'. Then we think 'well if I keep going a little longer maybe it will be better'.

It's still the same though, but we don't want to get off or turn for we are afraid of choosing an even worse fate. So you are just 'standing' there. Stale mate. Sometimes it turns better. Sometimes it gets worse. Yet other times its still stays the same and you start to wonder, is something wrong with me? Shouldn't I be happy?

If you are like me, you say well others have it worse, I should be thankful. And I am thankful for a lot of things in my life, such as my son. The feeling is still there though. It never seems to leave.

You just are 'lost'. Left to stand behind in the indecision of your own making. You are afraid to turn or to reach out because you might get someone else 'lost'. Sad sometimes the things we do to ourselves, while we are 'standing' we are not really 'living'.

I think that is why sometimes we hear about people taking their own life, but having no real 'reason' to want to leave this world. They had good jobs and a decent life. I think they were one of the people 'standing' there and just decided to give up and make no choice at all. I do not believe in that path.

I believe there is always a choice. I continue to believe there is a choice for me, I just wonder which is the best. I know no one can tell me or give me 'directions'. I am the only person who can choose.

If it was just me to worry about, I think I would be one of those people who plow head on. But I have my son to think about as well, so I am left 'standing' and wondering 'am I doing right for him?' I guess I will never know for sure untill I meet my maker.

I hope for myself, my son, and for others out there, that we all make the 'right' decisions. Whether we know if it is the right path or not. Untill then, I continue to pray I am doing right for my son. And I continue to be thankful for all I do have. I hope others do the same.

We only have one life to live. Try to make the best of it. Even if you are one of the ones 'standing' there between the choices of life.

[Doyle Hargraves]

Just because the topic was good, and the thoughts interesting..Edited for clarity.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ever feel you are lost or have lost your way somewhere? I don't mean direction to a place, but your way in life.

Some people know where they are going in life, whether good or bad. Yet some of us don't really know for sure at all. There are so many directions or paths to pick from. Each direction has its effects. Some plow head on saying 'what will happen, will happen'. Others carefully decide till they think they have the 'right one'. Yet some, like me, just stand there.

Oh, I don't mean that we do nothing at all. We work and take care of our families. We follow the road, but always wonder, is this the right way? Did I make a wrong turn? Should I turn off somewhere?

There are some paths we know we will never choose, but there are still many to pick from. We have been travling down this one path in our lives for many years now, yet we feel something is not 'right'. Then we think 'well if I keep going a little longer maybe it will be better'.

It's still the same though, but we don't want to get off or turn for we are afraid of choosing an even worse fate. So you are just 'standing' there. Stale mate. Sometimes it turns better. Sometimes it gets worse. Yet other times its still stays the same and you start to wonder, is something wrong with me? Shouldn't I be happy?

If you are like me, you say well others have it worse, I should be thankful. And I am thankful for a lot of things in my life, such as my son. The feeling is still there though. It never seems to leave.

You just are 'lost'. Left to stand behind in the indecision of your own making. You are afraid to turn or to reach out because you might get someone else 'lost'. Sad sometimes the things we do to ourselves, while we are 'standing' we are not really 'living'.

I think that is why sometimes we hear about people taking their own life, but having no real 'reason' to want to leave this world. They had good jobs and a decent life. I think they were one of the people 'standing' there and just decided to give up and make no choice at all. I do not believe in that path.

I believe there is always a choice. I continue to believe there is a choice for me, I just wonder which is the best. I know no one can tell me or give me 'directions'. I am the only person who can choose.

If it was just me to worry about, I think I would be one of those people who plow head on. But I have my son to think about as well, so I am left 'standing' and wondering 'am I doing right for him?' I guess I will never know for sure untill I meet my maker.

I hope for myself, my son, and for others out there, that we all make the 'right' decisions. Whether we know if it is the right path or not. Untill then, I continue to pray I am doing right for my son. And I continue to be thankful for all I do have. I hope others do the same.

We only have one life to live. Try to make the best of it. Even if you are one of the ones 'standing' there between the choices of life.

Wall of paragraphs just arrived.

Wall of paragraphs hurls a bunch of paragraphs at you!
AS: +408 vs DS: +271 with AvD: +51 + d100 roll: +87 = +275
... and hit for 225 points of damage!
Immense grammatical bolt finds right eye the perfect conductor to ground out in. A shocking death indeed. Mmhmm.
The translucent sphere fades from around you.
You feel less confident than before.
The tingling sensation and sense of security leaves you.
You no longer bristle with energy.
You come back into focus.
The bright luminescence fades from around you.
You become solid again.
You feel your extra magical awareness leave you.
You feel the extra courage wane.
You notice the faint image of yourself disappear.
The silvery luminescence fades from around you.
You feel your extra strength departing.
The layer of protection fades away.
The buzz of thoughts in your mind subsides.
The brilliant luminescence fades from around you.

* Doyle Hargraves just bit the dust!

It seems you have died, my friend. Although you cannot do anything, you are keenly aware of what is going on around you...

You mentally give a sigh of relief as you remember that the Goddess Lorminstra owes you a favor.

...departing in 20 mins...

Wall of paragraphs howls with vicious delight!

[Bobmuhthol]

hahahahaha

[Olanan]

Menace 2 Society deja vu.

<3 that movie