Jolena
08-09-2006, 10:00 AM
This is just basically for me to get my thoughts out on the stress of going to school, working and taking care of a family at the same time. If I don't get any responses, it will not detract from this, as honestly I just need to write down thoughts for my own venting purposes most of the time. If I do get responses, yey and I hope that they help me cope.
As some of you know, I started going to college online about 14 months ago to get my associates with an ultimate goal of a degree in Human Resources Management. My children are getting older (5, 7 and 13 now) and are all attending school full time. I'd like to have something to fall back on in the near future that will help me A) get out of the house and B) earn a decent amount of money to help with expenses at home and to fund college expenses for said three children. I'd also like to have enough money to play around in the stock market for my future. At this point in time, between James and myself, we make enough money to cover all our bills comfortably (meaning we don't live check to check for the first time in years) and have enough to save back for rainy days. I'd like that to increase significantly, so I've also started working about 20 hours a week from home. The income isn't significant but it is easy work and I am able to still be home to take care of the house and children, while going to school.
Now, that being said, its been a long long time since I have attended school of any formal type. Online education is not the most difficult thing to go through but I find more often than not that I'm dealing with classes and subjects that I've not even thought of in so long. Most of it I'm able to get through with some hard work, research and perseverance. At least until recently. This is where philosophy enters into the picture. I take two courses every nine weeks and this block of classes included 'Introduction to philosophy', which should have been titled "Introduction to a nightmare of long, abstract concepts and the worst stress of your entire life". :(
What the hell, I mean, I enjoy some of the things that are discussed within the course, and the history involved is nice to feel educated about in the end of things. But, damn, some of the concepts and thought processes involved with the philosophy of most of the key figures we discuss is just over my head. I have sat and read, then re-read, then re-read again most of the course materials and still, I feel like I'm reeling in a world of things that I just don't get. Does it need to be this difficult? And if so, why is it necessary for me to take this for my Associates? Ugh.
Couple in that with working four of the five free hours I have a day while the children are at school, and it makes for a very stressed Bree. I like the challenge, and I love that being so busy helps my day go by fast and allows me to feel that I'm accomplishing something great for my future, as well as setting a good example for my children. I don't like feeling dumb in this particular course, however, and I just don't have the time to delve any further than what I already do into this course. I've got a sinking feeling I'm going to end up bullshitting my way through this course and praying for at least a C in the end for my scholarship/financial aid to continue. I don't like that feeling, I wanted to do well in this course.
Anyhow, enough ranting for now. I've got to go to work for the next few hours.
As some of you know, I started going to college online about 14 months ago to get my associates with an ultimate goal of a degree in Human Resources Management. My children are getting older (5, 7 and 13 now) and are all attending school full time. I'd like to have something to fall back on in the near future that will help me A) get out of the house and B) earn a decent amount of money to help with expenses at home and to fund college expenses for said three children. I'd also like to have enough money to play around in the stock market for my future. At this point in time, between James and myself, we make enough money to cover all our bills comfortably (meaning we don't live check to check for the first time in years) and have enough to save back for rainy days. I'd like that to increase significantly, so I've also started working about 20 hours a week from home. The income isn't significant but it is easy work and I am able to still be home to take care of the house and children, while going to school.
Now, that being said, its been a long long time since I have attended school of any formal type. Online education is not the most difficult thing to go through but I find more often than not that I'm dealing with classes and subjects that I've not even thought of in so long. Most of it I'm able to get through with some hard work, research and perseverance. At least until recently. This is where philosophy enters into the picture. I take two courses every nine weeks and this block of classes included 'Introduction to philosophy', which should have been titled "Introduction to a nightmare of long, abstract concepts and the worst stress of your entire life". :(
What the hell, I mean, I enjoy some of the things that are discussed within the course, and the history involved is nice to feel educated about in the end of things. But, damn, some of the concepts and thought processes involved with the philosophy of most of the key figures we discuss is just over my head. I have sat and read, then re-read, then re-read again most of the course materials and still, I feel like I'm reeling in a world of things that I just don't get. Does it need to be this difficult? And if so, why is it necessary for me to take this for my Associates? Ugh.
Couple in that with working four of the five free hours I have a day while the children are at school, and it makes for a very stressed Bree. I like the challenge, and I love that being so busy helps my day go by fast and allows me to feel that I'm accomplishing something great for my future, as well as setting a good example for my children. I don't like feeling dumb in this particular course, however, and I just don't have the time to delve any further than what I already do into this course. I've got a sinking feeling I'm going to end up bullshitting my way through this course and praying for at least a C in the end for my scholarship/financial aid to continue. I don't like that feeling, I wanted to do well in this course.
Anyhow, enough ranting for now. I've got to go to work for the next few hours.