Your Lowest Time...

[The Ponzzz]

So I sit here and think at work, man I have come a long way from when I was living in the ghetto.

So just like the subject says, explain your lowest of low time, what ya did to survive through it, and if ya came out of it!

[Hips]

When my younger brother was killed.

I pretty much blocked my entire childhood out of my mind because of it, which is sad... but it worked. :shrug:

I'd say I came out of it pretty well, minus not being able to remember anything before 7th grade or so. It's definitely made me a stronger person.

[Edited on 9-14-2005 by GS3 Michiko]

[Praefection]

My lowest time when I was umm... 20 so almost six years ago. Christmas day when I had a huge blow up with my mom. She told me she wanted me the fuck out of her life, for good.

She moved to Washington, sold our house and about 2 weeks later I had a nice accident which ended in a broken ankle/surgery which resulted in around 10k worth of bills. Yay for no insurance.

After pulling myself out of the gutter I got myself through school and I've been safely living on my own for three and a half years.

[Asha]

1998 - 2001.
Heroin addiction.
Nearly killed my girlfriend.
Lost contact with my family. AIDS scare

The flatmate I live with now, mopped up after me while I sweated the whole thing out in 5 days.
When I could write, I wrote that I thought she was my Florence Nightingale.

Saying this makes me a drama queen.

[Leetahkin]

Being admitted to the hospital the week of Thanksgiving 2 years in a row.

Turkey week of 1992 - pneumonia
Turkey week of 1993 - was in a car accident where my boyfriend who was driving died.

I try to shut myself inside my house during this time, and not go anywhere, do anything for fear something else will happen.

[HarmNone]

I think it was finding out I couldn't have children. I was completely devastated. However, all that misery was relieved by marrying a man who brought two of the wee creatures with him. Got rid of the man, but the wee creatures (no longer so wee) came with me. For every dark day we face, there's a bright one to follow. :)

[The Ponzzz]

Well to explain more on mine, it was roughly Jan 2003 and I had just split from my now ex wife. Stayed with my parents for a month until I found an affordable 1BR apt in the city.

I moved in with literally an end table, a chair, a blanket and my computer(no desk). That's it. My job made me go from FT to PT and I suffered a 200 dollar per week pay cut. I slowly built up some furniture and food(it took over 3 months untill I bought a table, another chair and a recliner).

My neighbor behind me was a hooker, and a disgusting one at that. A few months down the road, her 4 kids were taken away from her, so I constantly had police at my door, because the apts were connected. Shortly after, she was killed and her husband and I were the only too people they could link to the crime. So I had to see her with her face shot off and had to explain I was working 5pm-5am, she was killed at 3:30am.

By the fall I had enough money saved away and bought myself enough furniture, it looked like a home finally. NOPE! My ex crashes my car(I say mine, because I was trying to get it in my divorce, and my name was the only name on it, but she won it.). So even though she wins the car in the divorce, I get stuck with the now 17K in negative equity. So the fianance company does what any other respectable company would do, repo my car that I was driving! And then stick me with now 10k in bills.

The repossesors never process the fact that they took my car, so my car is considered mine and I'm not insuring it! SUSPENDED LICENSE!

Bit after that, I was able to save enough to get where I am. Finally got a job in marketing like I went to school for, and here I am now...

[HarmNone]

Goodness, hon. You've seen some tough times. Yet, for all the misery you went through then, gotta wonder if you'd appreciate what you have now quite as much if it wasn't for knowing what it's like to be without. Without the hard times, the good times don't seem quite as special, don'cha think?

[Asha]

It sounds cool to be able to start saving furniture from scratch.
Starting your life all over again, peice by peice.
Good luck.

[Czeska]

I'd say things hit a low about the time I left my ex, he implied he'd "not be around" in the morning, then jumped through a screen door and drove his car across the lawn. Then fucked around with my "friend" after 2 months of marriage counseling.

If my parents weren't close to help me and my daughter, I don't know where I'd be now.

[ElanthianSiren]

Lowest times, I can think of three:

1. When my best friend was killed in 2000. We all thought it was because she was addicted to heroin and was whoring herself out. We had tried to clean her up, but she always went back to it, so we just assumed it killed her. For many years, there was incredible guilt there, like why wasn't I there, as if I could have done something to change what happened. I am very loyal to my friends, so this was devestating to me.

2. Living with a physically, emotionally, sexually, and mentally abusive person from 2001 to late 2003. Thankfully, at this time, I had some very supportive (yay for the PC staff here) friends who offered advice, prayers, and thoughts as I finally said enough was enough with his bullshit and left.

3. 2003, in leaving said abusive asshole, I ended up dropping out of school, something which was very important to me and moving back in with my parents. I had no job and no direction in my life.

I'm still not sure where I'm going to go to school, but now I have a job, and I'm trying to get back in. I've found a guy who is loving and supportive to share my life with, too, or maybe I just decided to actually let someone like that in my life. Who knows? What HN said.

-M

edited because the concepts of counting and proper punctuation eluded me for a moment.

[Edited on Wed, September th, 2005 by ElanthianSiren]

[Hulkein]

Hey ES, this is a little off-topic, but have you always had the name ElanthianSiren or did you have a different name in the past here?

I never realized you've been here since early '03.

[Edited on 9-14-2005 by Hulkein]

[ElanthianSiren]

Always had ES. Before 03, I was a moderator on the boards before they were split.

Eventually, I stopped moderating when stuff got too hectic. If you look at the join dates though for this board, I was one of the first on it.

-M

[The Ponzzz]

Yea, I do look at things differently now, than I did, but my struggle was because no one helped me, and I always helped everyone. If anything, I gave up on alot of friendships in that time.

But I'm fine now. I have saved alot, and bought a house(very cheap) a few months ago, which I will be selling soon(that was the plan from the get go).

[Terminator X]

The time some fucking retards put shit in my doughnut. I was completely convinced that I was dying, or was already dead for around 9 hours that seemed like a fucking eternity.

[Hulkein]

Literal shit?

[Terminator X]

No lol

[Hulkein]

Heh, I was pretty sure it wasn't, had to check though.

[ElanthianSiren]

Were it literal shit, a person would be justified in accusing Term of diarriah of the mouth.

-M

[xtc]

Man it sure sounds like some of you have had some tough times. I am not one to share my trials and tribulations in life, however there is no feeling in life like knowing you have turned that corner from your darkest days and that it is behind you and that you are stronger for it.

[Edited on 9-14-2005 by xtc]

[Skeeter]

My cat died. I was sad. :(

[Sean of the Thread]

Yeah I don't really want to get into how fucking shitty things are right now BUT I will comment on real shitty moment that occurred years ago.

I received a letter from the blood bank that I tested positive for HIV and sort of just collapsed from shock and felt like I had the weight of a bus on me and couldn't move for hours. It was the worse feeling I ever had..

[Tromp]

Originally posted by Xyelin
Yeah I don't really want to get into how fucking shitty things are right now BUT I will comment on real shitty moment that occurred years ago.

I received a letter from the blood bank that I tested positive for HIV and sort of just collapsed from shock and felt like I had the weight of a bus on me and couldn't move for hours. It was the worse feeling I ever had..

Carpe diem bro

I think that would knock anyone on their arse for quite some time

[Czeska]

Losing a friend of about 24 years to her cocaine addiction wasn't a very good time either.

I was just thinking about her the other day, knocked me into quite a funk for a bit, even though she's been gone for 3 years.

[Latrinsorm]

Two years after my grandfather died suddenly, to the day, my dad had a heart attack (probably his second of the week). We didn't know that at the time. What we knew was something was really, really wrong with him, and he was in the hospital. I was at school when it happened, and the 3 hour drive back was unquestionably the worst time of my life.

How I survived: I gritted my teeth a lot, and he was ok (as ok as someone can be after you crack their chest open and slash around for a few hours).

Close runnerups: When my grandfather died, 9/11, 7/7. It's hard to believe how much fear it's possible to feel.

[Brattt8525]

I was 14 years old and my grandfather, grandmother and father died within 3 weeks of each other. Nothing has had such a crushing impact on me.

[Detri]

Originally posted by Brattt8525
I was 14 years old and my grandfather, grandmother and father died within 3 weeks of each other. Nothing has had such a crushing impact on me.

Oh my ... that's terrible... :no:

[Kainen]

When I was 19, my first born child was sick and in the hospital. She was on a ventilator and was rapidly getting worse. Finally at 2am Feb. 17 1990 they came to me (I was staying alone in the Ronald McDonald house across from Oakland's Children Hosp) and told me that I had to make a decision, I could have her live for 2 weeks max or unplug the machine because there was no way her 6 month old body could heal all the damage that had been done to it. I decided to take her off the machine.. I couldn't see making her stay just because I couldn't let her go. I held her as they took all the IVs and stuff off and told her how much I loved her and that I would see her again someday.

[Edited on 9-14-2005 by Kainen]

[MangledKitty]

Aw, that must of been really hard Kainen. :(

I remember the day in 6th grade when I came home from school and my mom was sitting at the table and she told me she had breast cancer. I was so scared. She went for radiation and everything and has been fine for awhile, but just last year doctors said that they are seeing re-occuring and also just recently she has been having shoulder problems. She's strong though, I'm most certain that she can pull through, again.

[Burnt out Priestess]

My lows i think was when i was going through my divorce after having caught my ex husband and my good friend at the time.

When my father passed away ,i was daddys girl and it wrecked my life big time even attempted suicide at that point in my life.

When we thought my brother was gonna die from his brain tumor.

[Killer Kitten]

When I was 18 I woke up one morning with my hands all numb. Next day it was my hands, feet and teeth, and the day after that I was numb all over. I went to the hospital and they told me it was psychosematic. The following day I could hardly stand, and returned to the hospital in a complete state of panic. They again told me I was fabricating the symptoms and offered me some valium.

Turns out I had a condition called Guillian Barre Syndrome. My insane alcoholic boyfriend figured I was going to die and threw me into his car, taking me God only knows where, for reasons that make sense only to the apocalyptically stoned. In Delaware he stopped into a bar for a 'quick one'. A good Samaritan found me pretty much in the act of dying still in his car and took me to a nearby hospital, where they were able to diagnose it and save my life. I spent over five months there, the first six weeks on a ventilator, completely paralyzed. The rest of the time was heavy duty physical therapy, learning to walk again and such.

That was a pretty low point, but I did develop a very sanity saving sense of humor.

[Ilvane]

There were a couple in my life, thankfully all over now.

I lived through an ex-boyfriend who was abusive and also raped me..thankfully I got strong enough to get him away and call the cops, etc..he used to wait for me outside my work, or sit outside my apartment door and call me over and over again..stuff like that. I became friends with one of the local cops who was about 6'5 and a really nice guy, and he wound up getting a bunch of the cops to scare the hell out of him and he basically left me alone after that.

I'd say the second most low point was when my father was terminally ill and eventually passed away. We had to make the decision to take him off the machines and all that. The doctors said there was no chance he was going to come back, and that he was going to be passing soon, so they made him comfortable.:(

My dad was in the hospital from September until he got out for Christmas day. Christmas was great, and the week after he was great..after that he collapsed in the bathroom..and we took him to the hospital..he basically went into a coma after that, and passed on February 9th.

I miss my dad every day. It's still tough. Like others who have mentioned it before, I was a real dad's girl..and I really needed a lot of counseling when he died.

Bleh..But things are so much better now.:)

-A